Who am I? A more loaded question couldn't possibly exist! I'm a woman (hear me roar!)... wife... mother... daughter... sister... and friend but I'm also just your average 28 year old, newly married, newly mothered, partially college-educated, hyper-focused, bi-polar, stuck-in-a-rut grown-up who has a problem reconciling her apparent "adult" status with the really tall, responsible, tax-paying teenager she feels like. I used to be fun, I swear!!!! I used to be fearless!! I used to drink margaritas and dance all night! I used to get my nails done. I used to tan. I use to leave town at a moments notice to spend the weekend in TN or at the beach! I used to go for the bad boys.... I used to spend money on really cute, expensive, matching bras and panties. I used to fit into cute clothes in NORMAL sizes....
Now, I budget! I created a MONSTER spreadsheet with bills and due dates and remaining balances! Now I put money in savings! I check my accounts daily... even if I haven't made a deposit or withdrawal just because it is comforting to see a balance higher than $200.00 (which at one time would have seemed to me like a fortune!) Now, I pay bills....I even pay them on time! Now, I schedule in advance well baby check-ups and save my vacation time for sick-baby visits. I go to the doctor when I'm feeling under the weather AND (gasp!) I actually finish the antibiotics.... even if I started feeling better days ago! Now, I know when the cars need inspections and oil changes and when the taxes are due! Now, I clip coupons and not only do I clip coupons but I force them on others around me ("What kind of diapers do you use? Pampers? Oh, I use Huggies but I have like.... a zillion Pampers coupons. Here take them. No really, take them. Really! Really! Take them. Take them. TAKE THEM.). I actually look in the carts of other Wal-Mart shoppers to see if they are purchasing something for which I might have a coupon (because saving money takes a village)! What the hell happened to the OLD Sarah? The old Sarah used to have Mardi Gras beads dangling from her rearview mirror and a hot "clubbing" outfit in her backseat *just in case!* What of the new Sarah? The "now" Sarah? She has a car seat in the back and a Yankee Candle "Cotton" scented air freshener hanging from her rearview mirror and anti-bacterial soap in her pocket book! She has been domesticated!